Introvert Loner

Yeah, that’s me. My husband and I are very private and really don’t go out that much. Why do I keep myself to myself? I find gossip and mundane conversations pointless. I have terrible trouble faking interest and insincerity causes me offence. I also dislike giving and receiving praise. I just don’t need it. I just don’t like the show. I prefer to get on with things without fanfare.

All this being said, I’m planning to take a Thai Chi class locally. Maybe a Yoga class too, if I can find one taking place in the village. Strangely, people that annoy me always make a bee line in my direction. I’m allergic to cats but they always rub up against my legs or jump on my knee. I’m instantly informed that this is not the cats normal behaviour. I take it that this must be some insincere way of apologising?


My last bit of ‘normal’…

My last bit of ‘normal’ was to still drink English tea. I usually drink about 5 mugs a day but I just stopped. I found it easy to just put the mug down and stop this minor addiction, this comfort zone. I’d swapped to organic English tea with hemp milk but it just had to go. My health improved within 24 hours and, besides this, a whole glass of hemp milk makes me fart. We just can’t have that.

If a person has an immune disorder then black tea is not recommended. I’ve swapped to using White Tea, Green Tea and the other odd herbal tea.

Woke up this morning…

Woke up this morning and felt like I’d been trampled by a rugby team. I felt my left calf begin to cramp. I had two sprays of Sativex and lay there slowly stretching my legs out. Blimey, they were stiff.  Yesterday I’d been for a mile long walk without my walking sticks. I’d done a similar walk last week that put me out of any serious action for about five days. I did not want to get that fatigued again.

The weather was fabulous and, although tired and a bit dizzy, I felt I could walk to the post office and back. A mile long journey down and uphill including a few curbs to negotiate. At the start I always feel that it’s an impossible task. Can I make the distance? Past experience has taught me that after walking for two minutes my whole body becomes more comfortable with the effort. I’d just changed my diet and was fuelled by eating a cube of lard. I’d toyed with Ketosis in the past but now I’m actually making it happen. I was brimming with fat energy.

I passed by the house of another disabled person nearby who has invited my dogs in while they were straying. He secured the two of them to his fence with his belt last week. We had a sunny exchange and he informed me that he too had been told he’d never walk again. He had a brain haemorrhage and ended up with epilepsy. Now I see him walking his dog like any other person. It’s so nice to know others who are willing to fight for a brighter reality. He gave me lots of encouragement both heading down and uphill. So appreciated.

The walk downhill was easy. This was the first time I felt I could step up and down curbs without support. How odd it is to find these simple things awesome, I thought. I felt like a child learning to walk. I was so pleased by this tiny achievement. I say again, awesome! There are little dips in the path too and I handled those fine. Again, awesome!

I was really feeling the fatigue as I headed up the hill to my house. I had to stop and stand still to rest. My neighbour came past as he walked his dog. More encouragement was well received. I rested again just before the steepest part of my journey. After the final push the path flattens again so I agreed with myself that this made a fine ‘warm down’. I could feel my legs burning but knew the end was near. 

I got home and flopped in my Inada cube. My Shiatsu massage chair is essential after such a long walk. I’ve just done a small walking circuit on the flat today. Today my body needs to slow down. I exercise everyday because if I stop moving EVERYTHING follows. My body soon seizes up. I just can’t allow that and besides, the weather is so lovely today.

We are lucky our next door neighbours are ducks. It's a nice 'come down' view after big exercise.

We are lucky our next door neighbours are ducks. It’s a nice ‘come down’ view after big exercise.

A Vacation From Pain

I thought I’d be waxing lyrical about the Wahls Protocol. Don’t get me wrong as I’m as pleased as punch with the speed of my recovery. I just decided to take a definite vacation from the pain of the past few years. I’ve not wanted to discuss it. It’s easier to just get on with the exercises, stretching and meditation and just chill out in a glorious Summer.

Today has been fabulous. I’ve decided to build up certain muscle groups so I can walk without canes or crutches. I’ve been using a variety of walking routes depending on how I feel. Today I feel a little dizzy so it’s been a double walk round little retirement bungalows at the top of my drive. It’s mostly flat but there are slight gradients, dips and cambers to keep my body constantly challenged. I did two circuits and that’s about a quarter of a mile. 

If I go to the top of my drive i am presented with a perfect walking circuit.

If I go to the top of my drive i am presented with a perfect walking circuit.

As soon as I’m home I sit in my Shiatsu massage chair. I’ve found it an essential way to remove any build up of lactic acid. My legs feel light afterwards too. I use a hand held massager for those hard to reach areas like the Lumbar and Glutes.

I’ve decided to use Sativex together with the Wahls Protocol to speed my recovery. Because Sativex allows a patient to remain fairly flexible I have avoided the painful and time consuming task of electrically stimulating seized muscles. It is an effective recovery drug used more and more for post operative care and spinal injury. A guy came to fix my oven and informed me that he’d been given Sativex to recover from a Kite Surfing accident and resulting spinal surgery. He needed Sativex to help his muscles relax while essential healing took place. 

I love hearing stories of the diverse uses of Sativex. I’ve even heard of it been prescribed for those suffering from cluster headaches too. The sooner it’s allowed for use within the NHS the better. The NHS has made bad assessments based on faulty data. I hope they sort out their misunderstandings soon. There’s just too many people who need a vacation from their pain. Leaving them to suffer is nothing short of terrorism.